My husband and I lost our first baby at 12.5 weeks to Trisomy 18 nearly 6 months ago. Devastated did not begin to explain our feelings. The doctors ran what felt like thousands of tests and determined it was a “fluke”. But, that diagnosis was a hard pill to swallow. I was filled with grief, anger, resentment… the whole gamut of feelings, and I kept telling myself if I can get pregnant again then I can heal and move forward. Getting pregnant to me was the means and the end for my heart, mind, and soul to grieve this loss. Although Baby #1 was very planned and happened extremely quickly, this time it took much longer. My cycles were a mess. I used every ovulation test, every wearable and data-driven method I could get my hands on, but it STILL wasn’t working. We went 5 cycles anxiously awaiting CD10 to start testing, only to be disappointed with the irregularity of my ovulation. Finally, this previous cycle (#6) I finally realized the one thing I didn’t try was my mind. Out of all the wonderful things I have had happen in my life through visualization and positivity, this was the ONE, and most important one I didn’t invest in. I stumbled upon Circle+Bloom mid cycle this month, right before what should be ovulation. Not only did I ovulate on time based on my pre-loss cycles, but we conceived! Maybe it’s coincidence, but I don’t want to think that. I really believe this provided me the mental and spiritual strength to let go and trust…the two things that were missing and that made all the difference.
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