While we did conceive during the IVF cycle where I used Circle+Bloom IUI/IVF program, my breakthrough actually came when I used the program during one of my three failed IUI attempts. I was emotionally in a very dark place after a year of trying on our own. I didn’t trust my body and I was very angry at the world and at myself. This anger began to eat away at who I was and affected my relationship with others and myself. I was angry at pregnant friends and family members, angry at the woman on my street with two young babies under two, angry at my husband for being in it with me but not having to constantly carry around the pain and anguish in a daily basis. I didn’t recognize the person I’d become, and it was terrifying. When I found Circle+Bloom, I was broken and felt hopeless, not sure where to look for help or what help even could entail. During one of my first sessions, I believe around day 12 or 13, I was on my dining room floor because I hadn’t yet extracted the files from my desktop to my phone. At one point in the meditation the narrator said to forgive myself, to let go of the mistrust and pain I felt towards my own body. Immediately tears began to stream from my eyes, a completely involuntary reaction. I felt as though an immense weight floated out of my body and off of my chest. I could breathe again. By envisioning what was happening inside of my body and embracing it, even if it wasn’t doing what I wanted it to do, I was able to begin the process of shedding my guilt and shame and connecting with myself in a positive way to support my body in eventually conceiving our miracle baby!
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