Secondary Infertility – Rachael’s Story

I recently purchased your natural fertility meditation package. Prior to listening to that, i did listen to your free download for miscarriage. I have been having an extremely difficult time for the past year and have found comfort and a sense of control in your meditations. My story:

My husband and I are the parents to our beautiful daughter, Ella, who is now 2 and 1/2. She is the light of our life. We conceived Ella on the very first month of trying, with no problem, and i continued to have a healthy and stress-free pregnancy and delivery. Upon deciding to grow our family we began trying in November of last year, and as luck would have it, got pregnant again that month! At our 12 week ultrasound appointment we were told that the baby did not have a heartbeat. That is the moment, that pinpoints where my world got turned upside-down and inside-out. I could not believe what the ultrasound technician was saying. As a full time student in nursing school i did not have much time to grieve our loss. I had a D&C a couple days after that appointment and was back in school that Monday.

Once my body started to heal physically, and i began to have normal periods. I was wanting very badly to try again. I wanted to conceive another child, move forward, and out of this horrible pregnancy-free place. Months passed with no success. I tried dealing with my feelings, yoga, crying… a lot, taking time for myself. I did graduate with honors from my nursing school. I passed my boards. But, my focus, my heart was not in this celebratory time. I wanted a baby, a being growing in my womb, my belly ached for it, and it still does. At the advice of my midwife, i began using OPKs and temping to be sure i was ovulating at month. It seems that i am, but still I have not gotten pregnant. And now after seven months of trying we are seeing a Reproductive Endocrinologist for secondary infertility.

I stumbled upon your circle and bloom website while searching endlessly for answers to what may be potentially wrong with me. It felt right to gift myself this purchase of peace. And listening to your voice every night is what quiets my mind and allows me to go to sleep each night without the tossing and turning of evil thoughts: time passing by, how many years my children will be apart, will i ever have more children, thoughts of potential fertility problems, why this happened to me, etc.

I wanted to take the time to thank you, because even with dealing with secondary infertility, something i never thought would ever be a situation my husband and I would have to deal with,  your meditations have given me time for peace, reflection, and hope. I can not thank you enough. I do hope to deliver a success story to you once i get pregnant and have another happy healthy child… and I will!

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